Another Level of Faith

Ok I do have to admit that I didn’t quit understand what God wanted from me when He told me to start a blog and because of my teachers gift I automatic thought that I was supposed to teach the word through blogging. It was not until I was in the emergency room for ongoing health issues that my 16 yrs. old daughter at the time enlightens my understanding. Here I am a Christian going in and out of the hospital with a condition that the doctors didn’t know how to treat. When I first moved to Texas I had this new health insurance that had a waiting list of 4 to 6 month before I could be assigned to a primary care doctor. So until then I was in and out of the emergency room which was not delightful at all, OR in and out of clinics which took my whole day, and when I say my whole day I’m not kidding. What I'm about to say may sound weird to some but understanding to others. My health issues started in California. I use to love going to the hospital in a since that finally someone was taking care of me, you know with the nurse staff and all coming to aid you at your every beck and call? It was like being on a mini vacation or something, even though pain is what got me there. Now I have to be on my last leg to go anyway near a hospital. 
When I first moved to Texas and having to use the emergency room and clinics, I haven’t had one good experience. I believe God allow it that way so that I won’t depend on the doctors more than Him.  I do have to make clear that I have been going to Jesus in prayer, praying the prayer of faith and quoting scriptures as I was taught trying to dodge the trips to the hospital. I thought that since He hadn't removed this thorns in my flesh, He must want me to take this route for a season and reason. I have and still depend on God for my healing whether through a miracle or the doctors I yet trust His decision for me, because He knows what best for me.  Since then He has given the doctors the wisdom, knowledge and understanding concerning my situation that they will be able to help my healing process, therefore my prayers goes out to the doctors because I’m learning God chooses them too. So If you’re not healed right away, know that God can and He will whether here on earth or when we take on our heavenly bodies.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you how my daughter enlightened me. One day in the emergency room I was talking with 2 other patients about my conditions and how God said to me in prayer “My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness”, 2Cor. 12:9.  I started to tell them that through it all my strength and faith in God is growing and how God is using my health situation to bless others by not giving up on my faith. You know how people look at Christian as if we are exempt from health issues, financial problems, and family problems, etc.? Well, that’s not true, we are not exempt. We have the same life issue that others have until the day of Christ. We are just able to handle each situation different then the world, we depend on God’s grace, strength and word. He said in His word "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light”, Matthew 11: 28-30. Does that sound like we won’t have any issues in life? I rest my case. When I was talking with the 2 other patients I told them that I was surprised that I was telling them, because I normally don’t let people know what I’m going through concerning my health, because God is a healer and I didn’t want to become a stumbling block to the unbelievers. Which I found out later the way I was feeling was of the devil because I was feeling ashamed being a Christian with health issues. That met I was ashamed of the gospel, because in 2Timothy 1: 8 - 12 ( Read at your our pace and time) Paul talking to Timothy concerning ashamed of the gospel and the lord opened my eyes and understanding of verse 8  "Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God. Also verse 12 says " For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day." In case you didn't know Paul wrote Timothy  advising him to drink a little wine concerning his stomach and often infirmities, which you can find in 1 Timothy 5: 23. So therefore we don't know how often Timothy's stomach bothered him or the other infirmities. Now back to my daughter, she said.  “Maybe God wants you to use your blog to tell your story experiences with him, because there are other Christians that are going through the same thing and are losing their faith and becoming weary, because they don’t understand what faith really is”. Like the 2 other patients, I didn’t know at that moment they were also Christians. They said  they were really glad to talk with me and that God used me to encourage them, and I didn’t even know that as I was encouraging them, I was encouraging myself in the process lol. Isn’t that funny? God bless

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