ALL THAT I HAVE

I'm reading this book called "WORDS OF JESUS" from Life Outreach International Ministry. I don't even remember ordering this book, but I'm sure glad and blessed to have it. This book is just what it is. All the words that Jesus spoke from the first to the last. Anyway, I was reading the words Jesus spoke to the Disciples when they wanted to send the people that came to hear Jesus away so they can go to the market to get something to eat, and due to it being late in the day and they had been out there listen all day for hours. Jesus said in Matthew 14: 16 "They need not depart; give ye them to eat". Now to remind you prior before Jesus started preaching the kingdom to the people that on the same day, he had just heard about John the Baptist being beheaded and how it happened. Jesus went away to be alone when the people heard where he was going and went after him to hear more of the kingdom and heal their sick. 

Can you imagine trying to get away so you can grieve over a loved one that was just beheaded and the people wouldn't let you? In this life time, we would probably push them away. Even though I've heard testimonies of preachers and speakers that experienced the same grief, but continued to move forward and preach, I do have to ask myself if they didn't already have arrangements or engagement to speak, would they have moved forward? Not taking away from their testimony, but I can't help but wonder. Not like Jesus who never had arrangements or engagements to speak, he just spoke the word as he went. What I love about Jesus is that when he seen the people the bible said "he was moved with compassion" v-14. Knowing that he took a boat to get away and these people "followed him by foot out to the cities." v13. The "Life in the Spirit Study Bible" says in v-14 "When Jesus landed and saw a large crowd, he had compassion on them". That tells me that once the people found out where Jesus was going they manage to get there before him, wow, now that's how you seek, and I haven't even got to the point of this blog lol. So with that said, the point of me wanting to blog this scripture is when Jesus told the disciples to "bring them (the five loafs of bread and the two fishes) hither to me". All I can think about as I cried, is bringing all that I had at that moment to Jesus as the gospel song says "I'll give it all to you" that was playing and ministering to me, and how now the song "How deeply I need you" from the "Shekinah Gory Ministry" track is playing, I'm being double blessed right now and it's only by the holyspirit that I'm able to type😭😭😭. JESUS!JESUS!JESUS! GLORY TO GOD! That's all Jesus ask. BRING ALL THAT WE HAVE, No matter how big or small. No matter how new or old, or how good or bad, JUST BRING IT TO HIM! So Jesus can do what he did with the five loaves and two fishes. "Taking the five loaves and the two fish (all that you have) and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks (blessed it) and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to the disciples (back to you) and the disciples (you) gave them to the people (those around you). They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples (you) picked up twelve basket full of broken pieces that were left over", to give to others. Gotta go, can't say no more 😭😭😭!!!

Lord Help Us All,

Sista LoLo

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By the way, Jesus said in v-16 "YOU give them something to eat".

LESSON LEARNED

Wow, I just learned something, or can I say the lord just checked me? You decide. I met this lady who just happened to be homeless, and we became friends. Well, me being the type to person that I am when I see someone in need of something I just automatically reach out my hand to help or point to some resources, if I can. which I learned was my core purpose in God. Well, anyways, I extended my hand to help look for an apartment for her because she didn't want to live in a shelter or transactional home. Plese don't ask why. Anyways, as I was doing my research and running these apartments by her, I noticed that she kept saying no to a lot of them, because they weren't by her storage which is where she set up her camp and please don't ask me why I didn't offer her to stay with me, because that's a whole other story. So, I got a little frustrated because I explained to her that she doesn't have to worry about how she was going to move her stuff to her new place if she's far from it. I told her I would help with my vehicle which is how I moved in my new place and what we can't do God will provide. She said OK, but yet still didn't want to accept a place if it wasn't by her storage. Well, as we all know that "Beggers can't be choosers." So, I said to her that I if I continue to help her, she has to promise me whatever door God opens up for her she will walk in it. Now I know for a fact that if we trust God, He will place us where He knows what's best for us, because He withholds no good thing from us whose walk is blameless or upright" Psalm 84:11. So, she promised, but I tell you what. Since then, all she did was complain and keep saying she didn't want to move far from her stuff. OK, the storage thing again. So, I keep explaining to her for the ump teen time about trusting God and when God sees that you will accept something from Him that's out of your norm. He sees your heart and will bless you with your desires just like Abraham when God seen that he would sacrifice his son for Him, He provided a ram in the bush. The same thing applies in this lifetime with no exceptions. I ended up telling her since she keeps choosing her stuff over the will of God and what He has for her and due to the fact since I've been looking there's no apartments available where she wants to live. That I can just stop looking and move forward putting my time and energy with someone else. She agreed. This is the part that I learned something, or God checked me. I texted her saying. "I see that you love your stuff more than God or what He has for you." Well, God spoke nicely to my mind and heart saying, "so did and do you". WOW! He kindly reminded me of when I was on drugs, I met this nice guy who wanted to take me away from all and take care of me, but when he came to get me, I said no and didn't go with him, because I knew that I would be away from my drugs and friends. Then God reminded me of my present life, how I sometimes love sleep more than communing with Him in the morning. WOW! I agreed and asked God to forgive me. Then I texted my friend back telling her that I didn't mean to point the finger at her because I've done and still do sometimes choose things before God.

Lesson Learned😔

Lord Help Us All,

Survive it!

When life hits you in the gut, survive it. Scream, cry, shout or talk to someone that you trust who will give you the truth. Make sure you do this without hurting others. Just don't give up, and dont give up on your faith in God, but survive it. If you do this I promise you, this too shall pass, and you will live to see another day to look back and say "I survived".😇